Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Random Thoughts...

Oops! have not really been faithful to blog...just realise that this is my first blog of year 2009! Yikes!!! what have I been doing? Haha anyway just read a sister's blog...her recent post really makes me feel burden for her...but I really admire her courage to blog out her innermost feelings for everyone to see.

Wish I can do the same too.

But I guess deep in my heart, I am still afraid of how other people view me. Especially my leaders, shepherd and sheep. I don't like the feeling of being vulnerable...probably it is a form of self protection, from not getting hurt again by people whom I care about.

Last 2 weeks, I dreamt about a verse saying that 'my sins will be revealed'. When I woke up, it really freaks me out. Maybe this is something that God is trying to tell me? But my shepherd told me that when God reveals, He is not trying to shame us...but rather give us a chance for restoration and to reconcile back with Him. God is a merciful God!

Anyway on a lighter note...Vivian was baptise on 1st March 2009!!! Her baptism name is Annabelle which means LOVE! Here's a beeaaauuutifuull picture of me and her~~